I Could Not Be With You

The sadness in my heart, is so bitter and cold. It leaves me with no escape from my tormented soul. I tried to do what was right, but it ended up wrong. This is the reason for my tragic love song. I stepped up to the light, and to my surprise. I could only see you, and your deep pale eyes. I took the rest of my pride, to hold your hand. But it slipped away, like a grain of sand. The tears I cry doesn't matter anymore. They were soon washed away by the sudden sea shore. I close my eyes, to emotional thoughts. I open them to find that I was lost. I was lost in this surrender, which I could not fight. Even though I fought with all my might. Now I realize, I can not be free. When all I wanted was for you to be with me. I hope you understand that my life is through. All because, I could not be with you. The path I chose, is tainted with blood. Before I knew it, this caused a flood. This flood it is not only blood. It is also tears, which I can not hide. They run down my cheeks like a waterfall's cry. A shadow, it is the absence of light. For me, it is what I hold tight. I wish to hold tighter, to you in my arms. But if I do, it will set off an alarm. I am scared, and I will be forever. Because not having you, is like a bird with no feathers. I hope you understand, that my life is through. All because, I could not be with you. You made me suffer, I had to bow down. This as a sacrifice, brought me a frown. Loosing you, it is the worste. I will always remember you, as my first. Step by step, day by day. Your passing glance, doesn't matter anyway. What was it, that made you change? Was it our past, and far away range? Either way, please remember me. I still remember you, can't you see? If all hope is gone, then so am I. The battle is over, all I do is cry. And wait for the day, that you will come back. Come back, before my heart turns black. I already know, you will never arrive. So, why am I here? I'm leaving, good-bye. In the end, I hope your glad. You have left my side, and left me sad. I hope you understand, that my life is through. All because, I could not be with you. The time has come, to face the facts. That my future is nothing, nothing but glass. Glass in my heart, soon shuddered by you. After all you've done, and what you put me through. My dreams never changed, I loved you so. I must put you aside, I must let you go. You've helped me rise, when I fall. Now that I think of it, you've done it all. My kisses linger, your fingerprints rest. Our memories intertwined, to make them the best. There was no dark place, our love could not fill. When the earth made waves, you made them still. The way you spoke to me, of honesty and truth. Your heart kept me out of the rain, your love a perfect roof. I fall to my knees, in despite of your words. "Don't do it!" You said, it was all that I heared. I shake my head, and raise the knife. One cut to my throat, and it took my life. The sadness in my heart, soon went to Hell. Did my soul go to Heaven? You can never tell. I hope you understand, that my life is through. All because, I could not be with you. I wouldn't mind, spending every day. I still hear your voice, in the pouring rain. I will wait, for you in Heaven. That is if I go, why I did this? You may never know. I gave it all up, I'm done for a while. I would have done anything, just to see you smile. You were the reason, that I shed. I would shed more tears, but I'm already dead. You took my love, you took my soul. You changed my life, and all my goals. I still remember, kissing your lips. Those were the days, the days that I miss. That girl your with, she took my place. She took my spot, she took my face. I am the same girl, I am the same lover. I am the same book, with a different cover. You were faster than I, like a hurricane. You were quick on your feet, through all the pain. As soon as I left, you had someone new. She replaced me, you replaced me too. It may be over, but I won't stop now. I will fight through the feeling, I will fight through this crowd. It may be over, but my heart I still share. I still love you, if you only still cared. You're in my soul, you're in my mind. You're only the best, and one of a kind. I wanted to tell you from the very start. I love you, and you'll always have the key to my heart. My death, was like a blackened rose. You couldn't care less, where did your real heart go? I hope you understand, that my life is through. All because, I could not be with you. Baby, if you could see me now. I'm not quite sure if you'd be proud. I can never find any words to say. Ever whisper, every word, I still remember to this day. I've been thinking a lot about you. And all the hell you've put me through. I've forgotten our friendship when we were young. It must have escaped the tip of my tongue. I'd take you If I had the chance. You wouldn't spare a passing glance. Why do you not care. Like the love between us was never there. Some things I just can't understand. Like the reason you have left me again. You left me to slowly burn in the fire. As if living was your only desire. I thought I had you wrapped around my finger. I thought your touch would always linger. Underneath the love, were the cold lies. Which were all the right reasons for your despise. Can you remember the only sound. When you'd laugh, turning my sadness around? I guess love isn't for me to see. I have died, before being who I want to be. Still, loving you I do not regret. Because my pride hasn't been broken yet. I hope you understand, that my life is through. All because I could not be with you..