Leaving my only friends behind

It has taken over,
Taken over my head
Sadly it is breeding
The depression has now spread

It is eating away my happiness
Gnawing at each thread
It will never stop causing me pain
It is never fully fed

It is looking for some more happiness
Since I am fully out
I wish I did have some more
But that I do, I seriously doubt

It has spread throughout my body
But mostly in my head
Its excruciating teeth have chewed away my soul
I now feel almost dead

I sort of want to die
But a part of me wants to live
I am desperately trying to hang on
But the depression just wont rid

With each cut I feel better
But with each cut I also feel worse
I cannot even control my feelings anymore
Its like I am under a curse

My secrets are safe
Under my sleeve
But I am afraid if I keep going
My sanity will leave

So I have to stop
I will find a way
To tell my mom
I wonder what she will say?

Will she yell or cry?
She will probably do
Both of the things
I mentioned to you

I feel real bad
But my fault it is
I did do it to myself
But with guilt, it is hard to live

So I will gather up my courage
And tonight is my last night
Of hiding it from her
But it will take all of my might

That was my last cut
And never again
Will cutting, suicide or depression
Be my best friend

I will get help
But not today
Tomorrow I will
Put the blade away