I am looking for an answer
to the questions in my mind,
I am searching through the memory's
to see what i can find.
So many unanswered questions
and things i want to know.
Like why did you leave me,
so many years ago.
Everything happens for a reason
that is what they always say.
No matter what happens
you have to find a way.
But my pain is strong,
and my confusion is real.
It is not my fault,
i cannot help what I feel.
My dreams of a father
slowly fade away.
I am living life without you,
but i don't know why, you didn't stay.
You missed so much of my young life.
You will never see my children,
or my becoming someone's wife.
I feel so unhappy deep in my heart
why can't i go back and save you,
right at the start.
You are truly missed by me,
I hope thats what you can see.
All i ask for is a childhood
with my mum and dad by my side,
Without you life is hard,
I wish I knew you before you died.
I know I have written poems
and so many are about you.
But your my weakness and inspiration,
I am angry but i love you too.
My emotions are mixed up
every time i think of you,
I am happy and sad at the same time,
I just don't know what to do.
I hope you have moved on to a better place,
one day i will be with you,
threw time and space.
