You lit my darkness with your hellfire
You woke up my lust and my desire
I'm drowning in this void inside of me
Longing to be someone that I can't be
Longing to be the one in your arms
Forgetting all these painful harms
I'm writhing in pain like a junkie without smack
Crying, scratching, shivers running down my back
I have to slash and slit me 'til I'm bleeding
Craving for the drug I'm needing
Addicted to the one thing that I will never get
Addicted to your love... there's still no regret
I'm walking straight towards my suicide
Why should I live if I can't become your bride ?
This hole inside my heart which doesn't seem to fade
Is spreading like a cancer of emptiness and hate
If I just had never seen your face
I would have never longed for your embrace
I should have known it from the start
That I'd end up in a broken heart
I've gotten used to this shivering
It feels as if I'm withering
Only you could stop this slow decay
You won't - I wanted love and now I'll pay
(this is not a "cutting" or suicide poem, i just used these words as a form of expression. thank you)
