Driving me insane

She makes me insane,
almost suicidal,
I pour my feelings out hoping for an answer that goes something like this:
"I love you too but I'm not ready,"
But instead I get a "maybe, maybe not, don't get your hopes up,"
It would have been easier if u said it straight up and said u didn't love me, instead of making me dread each day thinking I could make you happy,
Then you leave me hanging by,
I think, by getting back with jimmy,
What makes you think he won't hurt you again?
No matter what I can't be angry,
because my heart knows what you've done for me,
seeing you with him would have been easier if you stopped flirting with me,
Like i said before ask me to wait for you and I will, to bad I'm done playing games and I'm ready for the real thing,
you make me feel like I know love but then it fades,
three more years till college and everyone will go their ways, but will you come if i asked you to? Naw, I doubt you'll go just for me..
Still I cant say "goodbye" you mean to much to me,
to bad I feel like a nobody in your eyes,
right now the tears want to flow,
my heart is crying out for you,
"baby, no matter what I wont let you go."