What others being cruel can do

Do you know what its like to not fit in ? ,
to be the one picked on all through school ?.
At times I wanted to just runaway ,
because other kids were always so cruel.
Growing up I was always chubby ,
the short one with glasses too.
I longed to be like the other girls ,
wished I was the pretty one its true.
Its no fun when people laugh at you ,
never picked for teams because you can't run fast.
Even one of the teachers thought it funny ,
to put me in a race knowing I'd come last.
The names I had to listen to ,
made me cry myself to sleep at night.
My parents would tell me to ignore them ,
and always reassured me that I was alright.
Funny thing is I actually liked school ,
the lessons that is because I wanted to learn and do well.
But playtimes filled me with fear ,
those cruel kids made my life hell.
I am an adult now wiht kids of my own ,
but still those cruel kids haunt me.
I've never stopped thinking I'm fat and ugly ,
believing that thats what I am will always be.
I tell my kids its ok to be different ,
and that it is not nice to be cruel.
Like my parents told me all those years ago ,
I'm now telling my kids to ignore others at school.
But theres no hiding from the cruel kids ,
the smallest difference they will find in you.
There you have it thats what its like to not fit in ,
and thats what others being cruel can do.