Dieing

When i see my dad in the way that he is now...

to way back when he was healthy...
when i was sitting next to my dad, he couldn't breath.. he was gasping for air.. i was so scared i ran out and got his puffer.. and gave it to him, i was sitting on the side of the bed in tears... i kept thinking that maybe when i wake up he will be gone that he won't be here anymore..

It made me cry even more as i was lying in my bed thinking about how i could loose my dad.. and never have him here anymore... I'm so scared.. thats all i can think of when i go to bed.. when I'm sleeping.. thats the only thing thats on my mind... i guess that nobody knows how it feels to have a dad that is dieing but maybe some people do....

my tears fall everyday.. they run down my cheeks, I don't no what to do when my dad finally go's when he finally dies i will fall apart... my life will never be the same i will never be the same person... i no that my sister will be heart broken to.. my little sister won't understand but i will always be there for her if she needs some one to cry on...

*will continue to finish this later*

to my dad i love you so much and will miss you when you pass... you will always be in my heart....

to my mum i love you so much and will miss you when you pass.. but you will always be in my heart... and i will never forget you...

love amelia