Bed of Tears

So many nights I lay in wonder
Inside me arise countless fears
How could truth exist in them
I loathe this bed of tears

Trying so hard to understand
How this could happen once more
Again I stand there watching
Your heart walking out the door

Around and around in my head I argue
These thoughts these rumors can’t be true
No way no how, everything is fine
Yet in my heart I know me and you are through

My eyes tense and dampen holding sadness at bay
When your meaningless words ring in my ears
Without notice my dam breaks and runs free
Please I want to leave my bed of tears

Not ashamed to admit I was a fool
Maybe it was me that pushed you away
Not making sense of anything
Not knowing what to say

Storms brew as darkness approaches
Anger bursts into one giant flame
Melting the core to sheer rage
Determined to quit this pathetic game

It aches it hurts why oh why
Screaming and shouting with no one to hear
Your not worth the agony and pain
For you there will never be another tear.