Secrets

What if I was to tell you my deepest secrets?
What if I revealed to you even a half of it?
How I told so many lies
And my life style people use to criticize

What if told you that I tried to kill myself?
And that I put 10,000mg of pills to my head
How I lay helpless on the Hospital bed
Thinking that I was going to hell

What if I told you that my mind I began to loose?
As through my nose and veins they inserted many a tubes
The doctors and nurses stared at me with scorn
As they wondered why to my self did inflict harm

What if I told you how much my family cried?
How they spent so many sleepless nights
Wondering if I was going to make it through
Or if my stubbornness had finally led me to my doom

What if I was to tell you that I was hospitalized for many days?
Confined on a ward which look like a barricade
Having to stare through bars imprisoned in a cage
That they treated me as if my mind was ill
And I had to answer questions against my will

What If I was to tell you that I had given in?
Giving in to all the persuasion
Saying yes to sin
While on devils face stood a grin

What if I told you that in all of my mess?
That Jesus came in,
And my case he contest
How he said that I wouldn't die
Until his will for me came through as it was prophesied

What if I was to tell you that it's only because of his saving grace?
That I am alive, instead of in that terrible place
Where the devil is in total control
And eternal torment is his only goal

What if I was to tell you that I'm glad to be alive?
And that I am happy that the devil didn't claim my life by suicide
That I'm truly blessed
And Jesus' saving grace I must confess

What if I was to tell that my writing is my testimony?
Of Jesus' saving grace and Glory
That I am so very happy
And through out the world I will declare my story

What If I was to tell you my deepest secrets?
Would you believe me?
Would you Judge me?
Or would you be happy
And Rejoice with me
For Jesus has come into my life
And has unchained me from the devils captivity
And now I am and will forever be free.

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N.B. This, like most of my recent poems is my testimony. However this one is more detailed, as I told you about what I did to myself and how I gave up on life. However, at the end you will notice a turn-around. For I lived and so Im able to tell you about my story. May this encourage you to hold on and never give up.
These poems are my testimonies. I'm not a professional poet, but hey Its all in the message. God bless