It makes no difference

I live my life in torment
i live my life in pain
atleast when im dead
ill not have to live it again

no matter what i try
no matter what i do
no matter what barriers i put up
the memorys still get through

all this time ive lived a hell
just wishing for release
but there is no one to listen
so i have no one to tell

they say that memorys fade
they say that time will heal
people wouldn say that
if they new the hell i feel