Putting the Beast Down

My feelings for you
are so extreme
that even though we arent dating
I feel paranoid
jealous
but always I beat it out of myself
I put it in a jar
so when we talk
I can control it
or maybe when we talk
you control it
maybe you quell this beast
I would like to think so
but this beast is from you
no not from you
from me being me
and thinking of you
is this love??
That when we talk
I feel happy
I feel safe
or is it just my hopes again
my hopes that are bound to let me down
please tell me
if we are for sure
if we are a no-no
it will quell this beast for good
well until I fall for you again