I am sad and mad
I wonder if I'm loved
or even meant to be on this earth
I hear people screaming " I HATE YOU" and "ITS ALL YOUR FAULT"
I see me and my brother fighting, and him dying
I see myself crying and nobody caring
I want to be free of people doubting me
I am sad and mad
I pretend to be stuck in a little box so no one can bother me,
I write my poems in a little box to get all the anger out of me
I feel like god turned his back against me
Like he doesn't even love me anymore
I touch my eyes and I feel tears of loneliness
which I don't deserve
I wonder if I'm gonna make it alone in this cold, cruel world.
I cry from knowing that i will never see my mother and my brother again.
I am sad and mad
I understand that you cant control my life
no matter how hard you try
I say that i can keep my head up and no matter what keep my pride
I dream that my dreams are not really dreams.
And that i can proceed with them in the future and not fall shamefully on my knees.
I try to keep my head up although it falls right back down.
I hope for the best for my brother and my mother in heaven.
I wish they was here right now.
I am sad and mad
And surely in the future
Ill be glad
I will not fall
I will not cry
I will proceed with my dreams
And always try
