A memory

I always lie awake at night
thinking of my life,
Where I've come from,
What I've been through,
The choices I've made,
and the ones I failed to make.

Its like I don't know what to do
Im sick of this feeling of never falling through
Im not proud of the life I'm living
I'm not smart with the choices I'm choosing

I'm scared out of my mind
and I can't help but think
No one is on my side.
How am I supposed to make it?
How can my heart keep taking this?

Sometimes I wish that the life I live is over
and that everything in my past was gone
and I could just be a memory of my own.
Lost in this cold and lonely world.