It's so hard

After four years of not having you... you'd think I'd have learned.

You don't want me, you never did, but still love you've earned.

My feelings for you have never changed and will never disperse.

Everyone thinks I'm deranged but my feelings are diverse.

I love you, I want you, I need you to hold me.
You like me, same feelings, all lies that told me...and sold me, and fed me...I ate every word.

And now I am hurting, I feel so absurd. This love that I gave you, you didn't deserve, but still I do love you, my heart you've reserved.

I saved you a spot there that no one can fill, it's a ridiculous love an emotion hill.

I gives me the chills, this way that feel.

It's like you have slipped me some kind of love potion. And now I am filled with this crazy emotion.