My mirror

Watching time go by as i stay hiding behind this
mirror i can only see what i want

I can block out all the pain and bring in happiness i can act like i don't hurt

I bring in happy thoughts so that i can get through the day without so much as a tear

I don't know how to get out of this spot so i stay here and live in fear

Smile with no true meaning and laugh just to bring in some kind of emotion

Everybody sees me as happy if they only knew how i truly felt that inside I'm dieing

Its gets harder everyday to wake up there is no reason what do i have to live for

I try not to be selfish although i feel like withering away I'm not quite sure why i chose to stay

I'm waiting for god to cure my pain give my life meaning or at least a reason to keep going

I have so much hurt and pain how can someone be so cruel and at the same time bring me down to

To kill my heart and crush my soul and so much agony i just cant let go

So until the pain goes i no longer am here or have to wake up to think about it every day

Ill try and smile and laugh to full you all into thinking I'm happy and hide behind my mirror

So none of you can see the truth in me