I H8 HIM BUT I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!!!!

Why did he change so much?
I do not no.
I do not no y he is now such a cunt,
But I h8 so much 4 it! He Fights with my dad.cheated on his old gf, he dnt want nothing 2 do wid me ne more... N im his lil sis... I just dnt understand ne more.
He makes me sad n he makes me cry so much.
Every time I think of him Icry, Icry every time i see him. N I cry so much I just sometimes wanna roll ova n die! He's made my life a living hell... When I new him I just wanted him 2 go...
N now that he's actually gone, I should be glad with everything he's done... But I miss him still.
But I still just cry N still wanna die. xoxo