Future

Confused;
On what is wrong inside my brain
Feeling something I can't explain
Like my body has been slain

Anxious;
What's going to happen today?
Or how about tomorrow?
Will I be happy or filled with sorrow?

Lethargic;
Can't move fast
Moving so slow it's like I'm in reverse
Head spinning all around, living a curse

Mistakes;
My life and that's no exageration
Thinking I could be myself without an explanation
Wishing I could hold her hand without confrontation

Wants;
To live with her forever and never let her go
Keep my feet in the stirrups, hands on the reins
Accomplish my life goals without failing

Fears;
Losing the one for me and never getting her back
Failing my family, friends and horses
Losing contact with my friends from the past

Failure;
Is like having a broken wing and no one around for repairs
To me is like giving in to my worst fears
Breaking down when someone is around

Giving up;
Emotions, they hold me down
On tears, they aren't all I've got
On silence, it just has to stop

Pretending;
No longer, I now stand without my mask
No disguise to pin me to lies
No more mystery to these vibrant brown eyes

Thoughts;
Of suicide no longer penetrate my mind
Of how to get that stupor locked within a bottle of Vodka
Nor of how to get by with or without getting that high

Escaping;
To the arms of my lover, burying my hidden treasure within
To a secluded area, just to sneak a kiss
To the future, so every moment I never have to miss

Copyright, Taylor Brown, 2007-07-20