I Wasn't Ready

I close my eyes to hide my cry,
Silence expels me from asking why...

Why you left me on such short notice?
I guess I just wasn't ready for this...

I wasn't ready to do this alone,
I wasn't ready to be on my own...

You could've stayed a little bit longer,
To make sure that I've grown stronger...

But you just picked up your life and went away,
Goodbye was the only thing you really could say...

Days turned into weeks which accumulated into months,
I wasn't ready for you to go, nobody was...

Promises you made just turned into words you said,
I believed them instead of letting go instead...

Message boxes keep reading empty,
So does the world you left me...

You told me everything would be alright,
But I'm left alone here tonight...

You guarded me and protected me for a long time,
Now the only life in danger is mine...

Because I'm so depressed, I'm losing all control,
I told you i wasn't ready to be on my own...

Even though I tell the world that I Am OK,
I can still feel my world just fading away...

I'm resorting to old habits that never really stopped,
I have been giving all that I've got...

So tell me, are you happy where you are at?
I finally realize you are NEVER coming back...

Are you happy with everything that you have done?
I don't face problems like you told me too, i run...

Because now I'm afraid that everyone will leave me too,
Instead of fixing my life, I just let the bad play through...