"and take the depression along with everyday fear"
--Don't!
"I want to change my life around, and be happy until I die"
--Do!
(As if my opinion will make any difference :-l )
that doesn't really matter though. it's YOUR opinion that matters and you already seem to agree with me :)
Jonathan, Do you want to hear the opinion of an always happy person on how happiness is gained?
--well, then I'll make it short. Just BE happy :)