Why should I even give a damn any longer?
Yet I do.
What have I become
What have I lost in this all
I'm stranded in transition
This translation from who I was
into who I'll become
and I don't know which I find more appealing
heartless, cold, uncaring
or warm, soft, and full of love
Which of these suits me best
I want to be like them
a 'normal' person at best
yet I keep getting thrown back to where I started
I hear them calling out to me
a promise that they'll never break
A trust so strong I'll always understand them
and they, me
A characteristic that no human can show
Seep into my flesh again
raise me from this hurt and aggression
So I can feel this numbness once more
and ignore the pain that pulses with my heart
Let this bloodflow cease and let me just sleep
once more
dream in peace, a life without desperation
