Fallen Angel [For My Brother] [24.7.07]

You've fallen down so many times, my dear.
With no one to catch you,
And nothing to comfort your fall.
You deceive me.
I notice the little things you do.
I start to think you're getting better.

I've fallen down so many times, too, my dear.
But not as far as you.
Not nearly half way.
I've got a softer landing.
Because people still hold a little trust in me.

I want to hold you, my brother.
I want to hold you and make your scar disappear.
I want to be there for you,
Hold your hand so you won't stumble.
But i'm scared.

Not of you,
But of a relationship.
I wish i could be the sister that you'd turn to.
I wish i could.
But the pain.
Oh the pain you'd cause me.
And to what heights i would take it to.
That'd be unbearable.

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Please, my dear, just hold on.
I'll try and do all i can for you.
But i can't save you,
If you don't put in an effort to save yourself.