Dear diary: it's over.

A couple of days ago i said to him, "tell me how you feel about all of this.. i need to know so that i can get on with my life.. if you don't want anything to do with me, please please tell me, so that i don't have to lay awake every single night, wondering what might happen between me and you. give it to me straight, make me cry if you have too.. but just tell me what you want.. please.."

and then he never answered me and just now i said.. "i guess I'm slowly getting the picture that you'd rather not make me and you work.. so I'm going to leave you alone, we'll talk casually every once in a while.. but i now get it, after all the waiting and the questions, the answers i never got.. i get it that you don't want to be with me. so I'm going to let you go your own way.. and I'll try my

hardest not to hang on.. maybe I'll text you every once in a while.. and if you ever want to talk to me, you can text me. other than that.. have a great summer. remember i miss you, i probably always will in some little way. but we'll talk, cause i don't want to miss out on you completely.. just text me every once in a while, that's all I'm asking.. goodbye.. good luck... with everything that you ever encounter. and remember, i loved you.."

it's over.

Heidi B
July 24 2007