Push Back To Reality

("I wanted to write something about "him" that would truly explain the way I feel. But no matter how many words I write, they will never explain what's real")

"Push back to Reality"

A while back you told me you were having problems and you needed some space and time. You also told me you still loved me and I would still be able to call you mine.

You wrote to me saying you wanted things to be the same. I cried but kept hope, for I believed you wouldn't play with our love like it was some kind of game.

So I kept thinking to myself that everything was going to be ok. I would ask God for your happiness at home; ask him to give you strength, just know for you I would pray.

I don't know what happened, everything just got so fu**ed up. I was teeming with happiness and now all I feel like is an old, inadequate, empty cup.

It seems it didn't take long for you to begin to disregard me. I gave up everything for you. Even my heart, and yet you still hold the key.

I suppose it hurts the most because you asked if I would marry you, and I thought you were being for real. Little did I know a couple weeks later you would entirely change the way you feel.

I thought I had love in the palm of my hand, thought I had finally found that special someone. One day things were perfect, then the next you were like, it's over, were done.

I miss you more that I can bare, more than you will ever know. For once I had the perfect life, I actually had a life to show.

You told me all these sweet and loving things. You even made up that little four way rule. I can still remember you making me promise to "Never lie, cheat, HURT, and always be truthful."

Secretly, I still keep hope. Yeah I know its stupid, but it's all a part of my mentality. I actually started believing I could be happy. I guess all I'm trying say is "Thanks for the Push Back to Reality."

~Stephanie Michelle~ June 13, '07

I really wanted to make it better but didn't know how.... PLEASE let me know wat u guys think... this one is so important to me... ill return the favor i promise.