Numbness

Its exhilerating how the blade lays on the skin
and you push down
and feel nothing
your numb
but you see a bright red crimson red sea rushing out of you vein
it keeps pouring out
and you dont know why it wont stop.
you sit in the bathroom with the door locked
you have done this several times before
but this time something went horribly wrong.
you try to scream for help
but nothing is able to come out.
you sit there bleedint to death
no body had a clue this is what would happen
when you were upset.
if they had know,
would you be in this bathroom dying?