Senseless

It had so much meaning
Yet somehow none at all
It leaves me breathless
Tugging at my soul

And I recall the memories
Of those cold December days
The ones when I was in too deep
To wonder if it made any sense

But it's too much to bear
So I try to push it all away
Try to rid the though
Before the wound that's opened
Forgets to heal

And it escapes for a moment
Or for an hour, a day, a week
While I get lost
In all of the world's parades

But somehow it all comes back to me
And I am left wondering
In the cold December rain
Could I have given too much away?
To ever be the same...