Cut my past into my future

My life is slowly ebbing
Fading all away
Slipping through these cuts I make
day by day by day

I know what I do is wrong
But I love the way it feels
It takes me away from earth
Takes me away from what is real

The joy and feel of relief
The joy that, for days, lingers
As the fast blade jumps my wrist
Down to willing fingers

When and If I stop the joy
One will never know
But until that day comes
My blood will continue to flow.