Constant Reminders

I hate the fact that I had to grow up so fast
I hate that I have no recollection of my past
There are so many things I wish I could change
But every memory seems so out of range
I wish I could go back and make things right
Then maybe my life wouldn't be so hard to fight
Sometimes I just feel like running away
Because everything gets harder with each passing day
These scars on my wrists, run across my veins
They are constant reminders, of all my pain
I wake up in the morning with blood on my bed
Tears on my pillow, and an ache in my head
I walk past my fathers room, without saying a word
because lately everything just goes unheard
I answer my phone, mom's on the other line
She asks how I am, and of course I say I'm fine
And as I say that, pain shoots through my heart
Because I hope that she'll see that I'm falling apart
But as always she doesn't, and then we say goodbye
I close my phone, as I break down and cry
I wish they would notice, I wish they would care
Their daughter is hurting, and they aren't even there
so I'll shrug off my feelings, no emotions I'll show
I'll put on a fake smile and they'll never know
I'll pull up my hood, and pull down my sleeves
I'll cover the scars that this blade leaves
For sixteen years, that is what i have done
I've hid my emotions from the day they begun

I'm hurting really bad right now. please r/c.