Never Say Never ((an Ending))

After talking to you with condolences
And empty words after promises broken
I realized i will never let myself again
Be filled with words unspoken

So now i tell for all to hear
A tale so wonderful in tragedy
A pain indescribable and yet numb
One that can only be told by me

It is of a love forbidden and gone
One you could say never was
Laugh again my critics
This one surely deserves applause

I felt no love nor could i
Emotionless as he claimed me to be
Though for all the things i couldn't feel
Well neither could he

And years would go
we'd both deny
Until time forgot us
Lie after Lie

Pictures left forgotten
And things we never knew
A love so many compared
Yet no one could but you

No one could quite understand
Because I'm not a human anymore
Ive died and killed myself over
Just to close that forbidden door

And tonight Ive decided to move on
As best as a corpse could
All those million steps you were ahead
Is where i now once stood

But no longer is it a race
Once that other word was said
And it was all it took me
For now i had decided

My heart is mine to keep
Never will i give it away
No man will dare lay their hands
And live to see and say

I belong to no one
I care not for what this means
I'll be alone forever
Just another one of those human machines

I'm sure i can not change
This feeling will stay and stay
I'll give everything up
To make sure it never goes away

The path Ive chosen ill gladly keep
Until my ending days
But id never say never
Unless it meant always

-i think this will be my last entry...i don't feel the need for poetry after this