I regret this I don't want to stare any more

This felling i regret,
i liked you,
I didn't know you,
i more then liked you,
i loved you,
how is it true,
if been trying to fell it again,
but all the guys remind me of you,
why did they have to scar you,
for one day i wanted to corner you and say hi,
i wanted a response,
did mike hate me so you left me alone,
or did he like me so you could only look,
why couldn't i just say hi,
or at lest a good bye,
why did i have to like you,
i act like you didn't exist,
i only thought about you,
how long it was until i would see you,
I'm getting sucked in,
I'm getting pushy,
we don't know each other,
I'm just some weird girl,
shit you don't even see me,
unless I'm being a fool,
u stare to make fun,
and i stare cause i think I'm in love,
but i do not know you,
i made a you in my head,
i do not like you,
i like the one in my head you're just the face and body,
but yet i can't forget the way we caught eyes,
the way i looked dumb,
the way you're Friend laughed and points,
you made my hurt jump,
you made me forget my studies,
I'm problem never going to see you again,
but yet you're tattooed in my head,
and the hope i mite get to know you,
i still can see it,
why am i doing this to me,
all these other guys like me,
and there cute,
i kinda like them but ever time they ask me out,
i fell regret and you pop in to my head,
i don't know him,
i can't love him,
i say it in my head so much,
I'm am suffocating my self to death,
I hate him i say in my head,
I don't want to date you i say,
you're not real i say,
even though you stand there,
i can't hide this feeling,
people see it,
I'm an actress,
if acted my whole life,
why can't i act this moment,
i want to hate you,
i don't want to stare,
i don't want to care,
but even when you're not there i care.