I WENT THROUGH HELL FOR YOU AND YOU DONT EVEN CARE??

As you slit your wrists trying to go for an easy fix i had to witness it all you thought you were smart and nobody knew but i knew and it killed me everyday. Eventually i couldn't even stand the sight of you. It made me dizzy and puke sometimes even just burst into tears. Just to think that you had blood dripping down your arm for the need to destroy your duration. Then seeing our parents having to hold back their tears at the sight of you! That was the only time i ever saw dad cry and i never want to see it again. I always thought and belived that you were better then that but i guess i thought wrong. I'm done having to explain your actions to the world and hear that my sister is an emo freak that brought a gun to skool being asked by teachers if your ok and what made you turn to that. I'm done having to stand up for you everyday cuz of what you did. You should be responsible for your own actions not me. This is your burden not mine so you fix it you tell everyone why. And that you never told me but i still stood up for you because i love you. I thought you were strong and capable of things but you proved to me your weak. To this day i still can't see you in the same way I'll always remember what you did. I prolly will never forget because im reminded each and every day by everyone and you think i dont stand up for you well your wrong i do. I just do it without you knowing it but i'm tired of trying to hide things from you I'm tired of you not knowing that i went through hell because of you! But yet you still think that you did nothing wrong!?! When you actually did everything wrong! And I've always wanted to tell you that im ashamed. For this i know you'll prolly hate me but if you can do that then you can handle this.