I open your eyes and the world is blank
Nothing is seen, nothing is felt
The numbness for those you once loved becomes stronger each day I dont say a word,
Those who once idolized me now look at me in pity
Those who once befriended me now look away in shame
Those who once loved me have forgotten the love, and
question how it existed at all
He who loved me greatest above all others is gone and
forgotten
So each day the darkness becomes deeper,
The numbness becomes stronger, more invincible and
harder by the day to break
So no words are said,
No feelings remembered
And so now I shall live the rest of my days in the numbness of old memories remembered, and torturing
me day by day
And so now I shall live the rest of my days curious of
what couldve been,
Curious of what even is
Questions existing, but not caring of the answer, so not
asking the question
No longer do I care
No longer do I feel
You helped me into this hole, then walked away as
gently as you could,
But anytime you leave can never be gentle, no matter
how careful you be
So you helped me in and left me here,
Then walked away forever
So now I live the rest of my days in this hole,
Darkness filling it each moment each breath
Curious of what is,
Curious of what couldve been
Thank you, my love
For this great disaster you somehow managed to do
unto me
--I'm sorry, I was very tired when I wrote this, and just thought of him...
