What if?

I am not going to write a poem
or a thought to share
just a distance memory
of something thats not there.

this isn't about hurt
nor about pain
I'm just thinking
things will never be the same.

I'm not going to smile
or even bring a tear
but then to be honest
would you really want to hear?

I'm sorry if i ramble
but i don't know what to say
i have so many stories
maybe i will some day

i will tell you one thing
my room is cold tonight
but its not gloomy
because Ive turned on the light.

am i confusing you yet?
i really didn't mean to
but my minds gone blank now
i really am a silly moo.

come look again tomorrow
and my thoughts may seem clear
though this room will be empty
because i am no longer near.

one thing is for sure
i got sick in this room
and i never did recover
thats why its all about gloom

you wondered whats going on??
but the truth is I'm afraid
i died tonight
before i finished this page