How did it get this far?

How did life get so screwed?
I would've prevented it if I would of knew

The harder I care to try
All I am a is a screw up in someone else's eye

Why can't I make anyone happy
Everywhere I look it's become even more crappy

Faded light from my soul within
I wish I could live without him

But yet something pulls me back to that horrid past
Yeah I thought I was stronger and this thought would usually be the last

How could he pull me back with one single touch
The burning sensation of the pain was simply too much...

This question inside is making me ill
I thought he'd keep all the secrets I'd spill

But something snapped inside his brain
All of his feelings didn't seem to remain

He was lying to me the whole time
How could he do that without having an inch of remorse for breaking mine

Stupid me though, to believe his little scheme
But I guess you can't spell Believe without a lie inbetween