How did it get this far?
I keep asking myself
Searching for the answer
There was no warning
Or maybe there was
But I never heard it
Fine one minute
Then Bang
Everything so deep now
So powerful
Not knowing where it was leading
Not knowing if I even cared
I keep asking myself
How?
Why?
Waiting for an answer
To magically appear
But it never did
I had waited so long
To find out why
I finally realized
How it got that far
It was I
All because of me
I had did it
I had made myself suffer
I could have said no at any moment
And stopped all of it
But I didnt
It was like a shield
In front of me
Shielding me form what I did not want to see
It worked
For a while
Then I got wise
Got wise to you
To everything around me
To everyone
I understood now
It was no ones fault
But my own
I let it go to far
I had the chance
To stop it
Many times
But chose not to
Why ill never know
Me and my stupidity
Nearly cost me my life
Again it was my fault
It was I me
Me staring down that road
That road to nowhere
I dont know how
But ive stopped it now
Stopped it all
Yes sometimes these feelings overcome me
They can be so intense
But I think and think
Of what it was like
Back then
That makes me come to my senses
It makes me realise
I was wrong
And Im not going to do it again
Not get involved with people like that
People who drag you down
Down with them
They know what their doing
They know what to do
Only I didnt know what I was doing
What was happening?
I now know the games you play
The way you treat people
I wish it were your fault
I know deep down it wasnt though
I was the one to blame
I had suffered all the pain
And you, you suffered nothing
I'm still dealing
With the shit now
Even though it has been a while
Everyone knows me
Because of you
They stop and quiz me about you
They threaten me because of you
But I dont care
Cos I know I could have said no
Could have told you to get lost
I chose not to
Therefore I am to blame
I made it get this far
