Selfish Memories Haunt My Existence. (Edited)

All the times I hurt you, every time I let you down.
Are now a selfish memory haunting my existence.
In the pain from these memories, I'm starting to drown.

Trying to suppress the thought of you from my mind.
But I keep thinking about all the things we didn't do,
It's hard to live like this, relief is so hard to find.

Wish I wasn't so selfish, thought about you, not only me.
Maybe if I wouldn't have always declined the invitation.
I would be less miserable with more dedication.

These selfish memories, they haunt me every night.
Why did I have to do that to you?
Now I live with a feeling of regret, a continuous fright.

My existence, I am starting to question.
I am afraid that the pain will soon control me.
That it will blind from what I should have seen...

Thanks to Mandy for all her help :)
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