Sweet Kerosene Glow

Voices and noises
All spinning in my head
A twisted way to think of me
As I am now dead

A person with such a grace
A beautiful disguise
A pretty face to hide the tears
Oh so many have I cried

I lay in the soft grass
The bitter sweet romance
Hiding in sweet smelling lavender
My darkest fears dance

Here and now
We can't hide
From the bitter truth
I am still trapped in my hell
Hiding my face from you

You now know
The reason why I fled your arms
Such a warm embrace
The scent of you shall never fade away

In my wake I leave no hope
No beacon of truth and light
In my wake I give to you
A daemon in disguise

Once again
I think about
How I tried to break free
The chains, the pains, my enemies
They can't touch me

I watch in horror
As the shadows slay me
Over and over again
I think of the people
All gathering to beat me
Oh; what a beautiful sound

I tried to fix it
I tried to help
I tried to take the pain
I tried my damnest, and look where I landed
Heart broken and unwound

I hide my face
Once again, hating how it feels
I feel so weak knowing such things
And hating you so much it's profound

No longer can you hurt me
I am bulletproof
A heart shattered but always healed
My dreams may never come true

Save me from my own device
So selfish and untrue
My words sting like the tears in your eyes
As I slowly leave from you