A crying heart

First sight, first smile, that's what you gave me.
You were in my dreams at night,
And I would wake up, wondering what had just happened.
You made me laugh, you made me smile.
You made all my problems fade away.

We became close, almost like lovers.
I asked you if you would want another girl in your life, and you said,
"No, I only want you".

You said you dreamt of my face crying.
Crying for a person needed by my side.
I told you the only person I needed was you.

Much later, I try to find you to ask you to be by my side, forever,
But when I find you, you were kissing with another girl.
Tears formed in my eyes, trickling down to the pavement.
The girl sees me and says, "I'm sorry".
You then see me there, crying, for help.
You come close to me, and said, "I didn't wanna hurt you".
Well don't you think what I just saw was hurting?

You began ignoring me, and denying that I saw you with another girl.
You both pretended that I didn't exist, as if I was a Nobody.
Every time I talked to you, you would always pretend I wasn't there.
You were a fool, a liar, a traitor.
You lied to me, to make me fully trust you.
But when I found out, you stomped all over my dignity,
Leaving a false soul ...

My heart is crying, it's crying for help, just like you dreamt.
Now that you're gone,
I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't even think of happiness.
My heart is crying, because of what you did to me.
A broken heart can heal quick enough, but not my heart.

Later, I hated you, but you again pretended that nothing happened.
You began being nice to me, began to make me laugh.
But I did not want to be fooled again, and so I ask you,
"What happened? What happened to our love? We were destined to be together, but you pretended that I did not exist. You stomped all over me, and left a false soul. Why did you do this to me? My tears are made of betrayal, anger, sorrow, and regret."
You say that my heart was too full of care, and that I didn't give him enough space.

Months later, I set a journey on going home.
I was waiting for my flight, when you came and screamed,
"Qistina, don't go!".
I stop frozen, and you hold me tight in your arms, and said,
"Don't leave me alone. I was stupid, please, oh please. Come back to me".
And I said, "The darkness captivated your heart, and now I can't forgive you, for my heart is full of only light".

Our lost love is now a memory, but that stain of depression
Is still in my heart. My crying heart is still crying,
But the smile on my face is genuine.