I Never Wanted To

We've had the chance to take everything and make it our own.
We sport battle wounds.
Because we've lost to our greatest enemies.
Each other.
Just tell me how to dress your wounds tonight.
We should rewind this tape.
And erase all the evidence.
Start fresh.
New bandages and all.
One thing stops us.
Your eyes have yet to be clear.
No matter what I do,
That color blue still holds sin.
Tell me why.
Or we can take advice from the experts.
Talk it out.
This is the only way we know how to make everything okay.
For now....
Or we could do what we've always done.
Run from each other,
And make our battle wounds worse.
Never wanting to heal.
These memories will last just as long as we want them to.
We just have to keep running.
I can't tell you how many times I've listened to your lies.
Never wanting to hear a word.
Too bad that's not how it works.
They killed me slowly.
One by one.
All the while, you knew.
But you never gave it a second thought.
Take me to your broken home.
I'll fit right in,
I promise.
.....Promises are meant to be broken.....
I'm just one neon color among so many shades of grey.
I just want to leave.
I'll give you a detailed itinerary.
I'll leave it on your pillow as you sleep.
From me to you.
It's my goodbye.
Come find me when you've dressed your wounds properly;
Let them heal.
Goodbyes are forever, though.
I must warn you.
There's nothing going on in that head of yours,
That I don't already know.
There's no way you'll change.
So, just come see me when your masochistic ways get to be too much to bear.
We can keep running.
You just keep thinking everything is alright.
Convince yourself.
I'll leave you with your thoughts.
But just know this.
....I never wanted to....