The Shatter of Silence

The shatter of silence breaks my train of thought
No sounds for miles, or so I thought
The absence of light brightens my gray
The moons bringing out the darkest day
My mind is full of an empty mess
Lately Ive been growing into less and less
As the world turns upside down
My feet still stay placed on the ground
I dont understand what is happening around
Im getting lost with no intention of being found
Youve made my world inside out
The driest river and the wettest drought
Ive never had love or anything near
But lately the calm of it is all I hear
When youre near my world goes wrong
The heavens around sing its silence song
This feeling I have isnt love
Not below and not above
Im falling for you, I will admit this
A feeling inside I can not dismiss
Ill miss you when youre gone
Ill think of it every break of dawn
But what Im looking for you can not provide
All I want is to be alone, to be able hide
My life is empty and I like it that way
I could end up loving you but not today
Please step aside while I make the biggest mistake
I should be with you, Im being a fake
Im afraid of commitment, for this is true
Its all too sudden, its all too new
I could call you baby and hold you tight
Sleep in your arms all through the night
This has been going on for a while now
I want it to stop but I dont know how
I cant live without you or with you either
Both would be nice but I cant have neither
Loving you would be too hard
I rather be able to just discard
Im on my knees telling you go
Youre telling me that Im not right, this I know
Im scared of the future because it is a mystery
Im scared our relationship will be history
Just slap me and tell me what to do
Love isnt something Im use to
All that I dont understand I try to push away
But I can see that youre the one thats here to stay