Let me let go

When will I find the courage to stop all this lying,
I am scared to tell you the truth because it kills me to see you crying,
I never meant to make you look like a fool in front of your friends,
but I have told you over and over again that we will never be together again,
this craziness has gone on way too llong,
it will all be over once I decide to be strong,
we broke up almost two years ago,
I do understand that I am the only love that you have ever known,
sacrifice has become my middle name,
we keep going in circles with all
these games,
I have met someone who has really opened up my heart,
the problem is he does not believe that we are really apart,
so explain to me why I can not be with him,
because he is the first one since you that I really want to let in,
every time I try to tell you it turns into a fight,
you know what you are doing here is not right,
I am tired of you constantly calling me heartless,
why can you not see that I am trying to escape this mess,
so now I am done trying to be nice,
once and for all I want you out of my life.