I died for Love

I want to get better
I want to see the light
But still the hurt comes back
Over and over again

Your hand in mine
It feels so right
But when you look at her
There’s something in your eyes

Angry words flying
Hot tempers, rising voices
Hurt feelings, eyes turned down
All alone in darkness

I though what we had was special
But sometimes I have to wonder
A single tear spills from my eye
Is all this just a lie

Lies are all I seem to hear
Will no one speak the truth
Who can I turn to if not you
Someone who will never desert me

Sitting on the bed, the window open
A cold wind bites at my cheeks
My fingers slide over the metal blade—
resting in my palm
I look for a reason to stop, I look for a way out

I close my eyes and see you face
But my heart begins to ache
Because I see her too, standing next to you
Everything is just a lie in this world

A sharp pain on my wrist
A crimson river flowing fast
Again and again I feel the blade
Again and again the silver is stained

So much blood spilling out
But still the relief does not come
This pain is trapped inside my soul
Searching, in vain, for a way out

Standing on the windows edge
I wonder how it got this far
But not even you can keep me here
I can see that you want her

The rope is rough around my neck
My feet slip off the ledge
I am flying so freely
Soaring like an eagle in a downward plunge

A beautiful sensation- falling through the air
I look up at the sky and think I will soon be there
A sharp snap of the rope
And all I see is darkness

So dig my grave, dig it deep
Let me finally rest in peace
On my coffin put a rose
On my tombstone put a dove
And always remember- I died for love