Complications not easily solved

Sweety i don't want to lose you
i do not wish for you to go
i want to be with you for ever
so much you will never know

to know you might move
to see you in some place new
i try not to think
i try not to cry
i try not to lets you see
when i am sad and sigh

i know it bugs you too
i know you want me
just as much as i want you
we were meant to be just us two

this poem is not meant for your eyes
this poem i am afraid might make you cry
i can not live with that
i do not want to be the one that causes
your pain

i wish only to heal
your wounds from your past
i only want you to smile
and never again see you crash

it is true i am in pain
when i think of you
leaving on a plane
or in a car
leaving me so far

i want to believe
we will get through this
i want to relieve
you from this

this poem i write for me
not for you
i write it because i am hurt
at the thought of leaving you

i wish for you to stay with me forever
i want to find a way to make it all better
i have decided i will go with you
wherever
cause then at least i wont miss you

it pains me whenever i am alone
to know
the chance of losing you
i am trying to find a way
to help me and you stay
together forever

i may not be to clever
but i will never
just give up on this
on a chance that i can still be with you
because you make me happy
even if you were the one who stabbed me
as long as i was with you
it would be worth it

i once told you
my heart and soul is yours
for ever and ever
i wish to be with you
even as we go into a land untold

so i will not let us unfold
i will keep us together
i will never find anyone better
no one could ever love me as much as you do
so this poem i write not for you
i write this poem for me
i write it so i can still believe
in you and me forever

*2018 edit, only the first year of the relationship was this good I really hate that I wrote all these love poems*