Bleed

I want to cut i want to bleed

I want my heart to beat at an intensening speed

I want to be lulled by its rhythm put under its spell

I want it to take me out of this ever painful hell

I want to not care about what people think, to riase my voice to speak

I want control over myself not to be so meager so weak

I want a lot of things like parents who care

I want to do the things that will help me things I wouldn't normally dare

I want to be smarter and less ugly too

I want a loving family and friends who are true

I want insides that don't match my out

I want a Good relationship with God and a faith that i don't doubt

I want to go back to a time where morals are not something I lack

I want my soul not to be so burdened and black

I want a lot of things.. things that can never come to be

but most of all I just want to bleed