Demon In Disguise

This is not my own piece of work. It is a Friends however they have given me permission to post it. I hope you all like it regardless.

It's 2 am.

The house is silent,

Except for the ticking of clocks,

And my buzzing brain.

My eyes ache,

My head thumps,

My body is tired,

And yet sleep doesn't come�

Sleeping pills aren't working,

Nor is counting sheep.

And lavender candles just make it worse�

There is no avoiding it,

My thoughts turn to him,

To you.

You have disturbed my slumber

For the past three nights �

Why have you come back,

After such a prolonged absence

In my life?

Last I heard,

You hated me�

So why do my thoughts wander

To someone who hates me?

I cannot possibly still

Feel for the one who

Broke my heart unrelentingly?

Of course not,

It's ludicrous.

Why should I still have feelings

For the man, the boy,

Who almost killed me;

With five words:

"� but I don't love you."

A dagger, once more,

In my heart.

Will you cease,

And leave me be?

I'm sure I can live on,

If only you'd let me try!

But you won't.

You want all of my attention,

Although I cannot have yours�

And still I give it up, willingly.

You always had a way with me.

Will it be this way for always?

I don't want to be

Under your spell for the rest of my days,

I want to have a life,

Outside of you.

But I need you.

After all the hurt you caused to me,

I'm finding myself,

Needing you more than ever�

This isn't fair �

You don't want me,

But you've got me

Wrapped around your little finger.

If only you would take it back,

Tell me you didn't mean it,

You could have all of me.

But everything,

Was never enough for you�

I gave you my all,

Once,

And it came back to bite me.

So why am I

So eager

To give you my all, again?

I'm not quite sure myself,

But I know,

For all the pain,

You're the only one

Who made me blissfully happy�

It's now 3 am,

And I'm as awake as ever.

All I want is rest,

Rest from you.

Why won't you leave me alone,

My Demon in Disguise?