Fallen Disgrace

Can you save me Iâ??m one the edge
all these thoughts are running through my head
13 years of my pitiful life wasted
I should of decided to do this years ago
I never had any meaning in this world
I was a punching bag a sex toy a person to use
no one took the time to get to know me
I was the ugly duckling in a world of swans
no one associated with me unless it was to taunt me
that's all they ever did was laugh and mock
they had no right to judge what they didn't know
put Kids my age love to be curl and that's what they were
so here I am so high up with a few minutes down
I lift my foot and finally I feel free
free of my worries no more cares I am truly happy
I hit the ground with a splat my body is motionless
my soul lingers for an hour there directed to the white light
I stand before the golden gates accepted in with open arms
my wings are crooked my halo bent everyone else is perfect
how could God take me in I didn't really deserve it
a fallen angel bound to earth is what I should be
so that day I jumped and fell from grace
I expelled myself from heaven to a life of eternal hell
but God reached back down to save me
I was no longer fallenfromgrace
happy again where I belonged
in an eternal place of bliss

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