Nightmare

**I Get The News**

The phone is ringing
It's late at night
I stumble out of bed
Something's not right

My heart is pounding
As I pick up the phone
Ethan left a long time ago
And he still hasn't told me he's home

Crying meets my ears
My heart pounds in my chest
I know I won't be getting good news
But I hope for the best

''Ethan was in an accident.''
A woman's voice chokes
My words get caught in my throat
I don't want to believe the words I just heard spoke

I want to scream
I want to cry
But I can't
I'm numb inside

I finally manage to ask the question
''Is he okay?''
But by her sobbing
I know what she's going to say

''I'm sorry, Amber, but he didn't make it.''
My heart rips like a lost love letter
Since he's gone
We'll just die together

Tears roll down my cheek
I hang up the phone
I'm all alone
No one's at home

Numbly sauntering to my dresser
I grab a long lost blade
As I put it to my wrist
I remember the promise I had made

I promised Ethan I wouldn't cut
If I loved him, restrain I must
With a sob I put it back
Why was life so unjust?

**The Funeral**

Dressed in black
Tear drained eyes
This was the day
I'd say my final goodbye

They slowly lower
The casket into the hole
My heart is broken
I have no soul

''God, why'd you take him?''
I silently pray
''I loved him so much.
Why couldn't he stay?''

The funeral ended
As quickly as it had begun
Ethan was gone
This horrible world won

**Home Alone**

I'm sitting in bed
Staring at the floor
A minute passes
And there's a knock at the door

Mom walks in
Her eyes averted down
''We're going to the store.''
I don't make a sound

Knowing I wouldn't be coming
She leaves me behind
After they leave
I make up my mind

I promised him I wouldn't cut
I remember as I continue to cry
But I didn't tell him
I wouldn't end my life

Swiftly walking into my parent's room
A violent plan plays in my head
I know I won't be here much longer
I'll be lying on the floor dead

I find what I'm looking for
A device made for killing
But I won't be murdered
I'll just go willing

Putting the pistol to my head
I know I'm going insane
But the last thing I hear
Is a ricocheting BANG!!

**Just A Dream**

I wake with a start
My heart racing rapid
I close my eyes
Trying to remember what happened

It had all been a dream
A trick played in my mind
I look around me
To see it was 11:09

Ethan still hadn't called me
What was taking him so long?
He didn't live too far away
He should be safe at home

The phone rings
And I catch my breath
Would this phone call be one of death?

''Hey Sweetie! I made it.''
I exhale deep
Now that he's home safe
Maybe I can get some sleep

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