What are you doing to me?

I wish I could tell you that you hurt me
That I dont know if youre just leading me on
But none of this should affect me anyway
But I cant stand the thought,
That I could be just your pawn

Why tell me the things you do,
Just to make me feel better?
Or get me more confused?
Maybe its because you actually care,
And you want me to get threw

I thought you were giving me another reason to live
But you had to destroy by the simple words I love you to another chick
Now I sit here breathing, but Im not alive
I trusted you,
You said I was the only one,
You would hand pick