Dear Daddy

I am just a normal girl
what do you expect from me
what have i done wrong
it's not my fault i was born
but if it is that why you hate me
i am really sorry
every evening
i fear you angry voice
but i know now i can't hide
you're finding me
so i just sit here and wait for you
wait for the beating on my body
and wait for the tears
that i cry
every time
you've had enough
daddy
i know you miss mummy
i miss her too
but do you really have to make my life that worse
i took some pills up with me in my room
you're still on work now
i still have enough time to die
my soul is already dead
i have all those pills in my hand now
and a knife next to me
to be sure i die
i can't bear this life anymore
daddy, i don't want to leave you alone
but maybe you're happier without me
I'll go up to mum now
I'll tell her you love her
because i know you do
i am slowly dying now
blood dropping out my wrists
i slowly close my eyes
please forgive me for whatever I have done
for making you hate me so much
I'll leave you now
and i hope you are doing better now
without me.

*!!!Please,please,please comment this poem, because it is something really personal to me!!!!!!*