My [Beating] Heart<3

My heart is beating fast, hoping the silence will last.
As you talk I try to catch my breath with a gasp.
I try not to let you hear me cry,
because I know you'll just ask me why.
When you do I'll know exactly what to say,
but then it will all just fade away.
You don't know how much it hurts to hear you talk
about her, then it just hurts even more.
You said cutting over you wasn't worth it, but
just cutting in general is worthless,
yet it helps me relieve my pain,
leave on my leg a blood stain.
You're lucky, you don't have to go to school everyday
knowing you're invisable with each breath you take,
but I still keep on my fake smile just in case.
And when people do see me they know.
They know I cry on the outside and die on the inside
hoping people won't see that I'll all alone
and without someone to hold.
And tonight I lay here
My heart beating fast,
hoping this time the silence will last.