Avoiding something,
Avoiding something that I shouldn't be,
I pray not to wake up everyday,
To the grace of the sunshine,
And the feel of the morning breeze,
I pray I'll continue sleeping,
Though life is anything but colourful,
I rather fall into a deep sleep,
I rather not deal with life yet another day..
..I'm avoiding something,
Uncertain what it is,
But day by day I'm avoiding it,
Avoiding to be alive,
Avoiding to breath,
I just want to rest,
I just want a life,
Without me avoiding each and every day..
..The truth I refuse to hear,
The truth I choose to avoid,
Being ironic is how I live my life,
Not showing my true face,
Not unveiling my mask beneath,
No one should know the truth about me,
For if they ever do it's me they will avoid..
..So far away from my final destination,
So far away that I couldn't see clear,
So far away I choose to avoid,
Avoid reaching there,
Avoid being seen,
Avoid being dead..
..All I want is just to rest,
Not to be dead and not to be gone,
All I want is just to avoid,
The mess I've made,
And the things I can't undo..
..Avoiding the past,
Avoiding the future,
I live in the present,
And not more than that..
..To avoid is to be ignorant,
To avoid is to put a comma in a sentence,
To avoid is to suspend what life's going to be next..
..I just want to avoid,
I just am too tired to live..
..All I want is just to avoid..
*A different style from previous poems I've written, it means a lot to me...coz I really am avoiding life...
